Friday, November 15, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
I find myself repeating this mantra to myself these days.
I applied to be a workshop presenter for a 2014 program. It's being held in a place I've dreamed of visiting for years. Those who were approved were to receive contracts last month, and those who did not got rejection letters. I received neither.
Here's the gut check- I have been convinced I would be booked by this program from the start. Don't confuse this with me feeling I should be booked, or was somehow better than anyone else who submitted proposals. I simply felt it was to be.
This gut feeling is now at odds with reality, since we are past the approval date. By a couple weeks. You see, I still feel this assurance that I will be participating. It's a visual thing, reminiscent of a game show I played years ago. I can see myself there. No, seriously.
I auditioned for Who Wants to be a Millionaire in 2001. From the start, I inexplicably knew I would be on the show. I lined up with hundreds of strangers the night before they held auditions in Nashville. I made it through the initial stages, then was told we would hear soon if we were chosen to appear on an upcoming show. Soon after this, however, Regis left the show and the set went dark. A year went by before I got "the call" in 2002. I ended up playing the game, just as I had felt I would.
So, how long do I check the mail with urgency? At what point do I accept that they're "just not that into me", and try again next year? Maybe my intuition was a year off? I just don't get it. When my radar hits this strongly, it's never been wrong. Is it an age thing? Is my mojo weakening?
I maintain it's a good rule to trust your gut. I won't temper this directive to my kids simply because of this hiccup. I still believe we are better off when we stay sensitive to these directions and warnings, and I remain hopeful (and possibly unrealistic).
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Southern Festival of Books in Nashville, TN. Wow, what a line-up! C-SPAN doesn't shoot just any old event, people. They were all over this one, though, and it's no mystery why. Host Humanities Tennessee lined up the big names for this, their 25th anniversary.
Every year I look up the three-day schedule and start scoping out which panels, events and signings I want to hit. There's always overlap, thus conflict, so I have to choose between missing out or being "that person" who tries to slink out of the room halfway through to try and double up. However, today it all lined up magically, so I was able to navigate the day pretty smoothly.
I always end up meeting the nicest people at the festival. Today was no different. At Katy Butler's (fascinating) talk, I met Karen from South Dakota. Karen has been coming every year since 2002. She has friends from all over the country she's met here who also make the pilgrimage and has, "the time of my life for 2 1/2 days every year in Nashville."
There's something for everyone, and it's FREE!
Also free were the books I was given. Advance copies distributed for review. Check out the picture and take a look. See anything you like? Well, if you have liked my facebook for HEALING and follow me on twitter (@thegrieflady), take your pick and I'll have it in the mail to you this week. My way of spreading the book love and saying thank you.
P.S. Re: the recent post about whether or not to apply to present a workshop at the spiritual community? Well, I submitted my proposal, and should hear this week. Stay tuned......
Monday, May 20, 2013
I have been speaking to various groups about grief for awhile now. I feel it's where I belong. I have met some of the most remarkable survivors at these events, and always learn more than I teach. The topics are fairly consistent- healing, hope, how to help those who are grieving, what helps/what hurts, etc.
Well, here comes the fork in the road. There's an opportunity to present a grief workshop at a spiritualist community next year. They feature psychic mediums, holistic healing, meditation, etc. Applications need to be submitted soon, though, thus my decision. I have heard from many, many families about the comfort they have felt through these events. While I have long been drawn to this type of thing, I realize there are those who object. Strongly. I happen to be a Christian who believes psychics pose no threat to my faith. I feel the source of all love is God, therefore the comfort that comes from a healing reading is from Him. This is why I have been working on my application for a workshop.
The grief community is somewhat small, and I recently received a cautionary email from another grief support worker warning me about possible consequences of participating in the aforementioned community's activities. The danger, in a nutshell? Diminished credibility.
My knee-jerk reaction is, "That's ridiculous! I don't care what anyone else thinks! (cue toddler voice) I do what I want!"
Then I step back and think, and re-think, and over-think-
- Would I be identified with a niche that is only a small part of my beliefs?
- Should I pass on anything remotely controversial?
- Where do I draw the line?
- Does anyone really care?
- Could this harm book sales?
- What would my publisher say?
- Does it matter?
- Might this be the best move I could make?
- Might this be the worst move I could make?
Am I facing my own Dixie Chicks moment?!
I appreciate the good intentions of the woman who warned me about the potential fall-out from aligning myself with this type of activity. I also feel the benefits of reaching out to attendees there and offering words of hope and paths to healing outweigh any potential damage to my reputation, such as it is.
I would be very interested in what you have to say about this. Please comment freely, anonymously if necessary, and tell me what you think.